Valentine's Day

Beloved,

Happy Valentine’s Day.   You are still and always will be the only valentine I ever want or desire.  

You said such an important thing the other morning, as I was overwhelmed with sadness at the thought of our parting.

“My life needs to be different.” 

You are right, and I’m so thankful that you see that, that you are completely uncomfortable and unwilling to just slide into the life it seems we were heading for.  One not unlike that of your parents.  A miserable life of criticism, bitterness, and anger, of continually finding fault with each other and with those we know. 

I desperately don’t want that any more than you do. 

I believe there is a way for you (and for me) to have a totally different life than that gray future. And I believe that path can be a faithful one, a covenant-keeping one.  I see that there is a battle going on here, one that I can not participate in. 

I have come to a place of simply wanting you to find your way to a much different life than that.  I don’t know what it will take; how I pray that you will be able to do what is right, as hard as it may seem. 

But what I do know is that the different life you are searching for must come without my intervention.  You must find it for yourself, through Christ alone. 

I do not know what possible pain the future holds in this struggle you are in.  It could come at great cost to all of us.  But I will pray fervently for you, and do my best not to intervene.  I see how God is changing me also.  I will love you quietly and faithfully. 

With all my love,

Dori